Snow brings clarity


I woke up yesterday morning a beautiful blanket of fresh snow and a nice light snowfall . It really is magical to see such beauty as it covers the trees ever so gently as if daring the wind to blow it off. After seeing how much fun the dogs had when i let them out, I thought nothing of suiting up quickly and heading out for a run. We took the short 2 k trail pictured here first to warm up. Snow was about 7-8 cm deep, just enough to make it challenging but still manageable. Luckily for me my 4 furry friends plowed ahead first to make a bit of a trail. Its so inspring to watch them run and roll in the snow, loving nothing more than the simplicity of energy and nature. Several trees hung over the trail , weighed down by the snow so I had to run right through them , creating my own fun along the way, as every so often Boo got a scent of a rabbit and darted off on her own into the forest. After the 2 k we ended up back at the house and poor JILLY had about her body weight in little snow balls stuck to her chest and haunches. Only way to get them off is with a warm bath, so off we went. I left Boo, Jilly and Starr to rest in the house while Zoey and i went off for another 7k. We hit the longer trail which was just as pretty , with my loyal Zoey leading the way . The great thing about deep snow running is that on the way back you can check your foot landing and, in my case my feet are still splaying outward too much, so I can focus on that more. Another benefit with snow running is that you are really forced to lean forward and land forefoot with your feet underneath you, the key to “chi” running. Love it!!! Home to cool down by plowing the driveway by hand, finished off with a nice cappucino!! I think I’m gonna enjoy winter again this year!!!
UP at 630 am today to begin cooking dinner for our Shelter Family. Its become a yearly tradition here in our home and I love it. The whole house smells of savory and sweet aromas for 3 days straight. Gravy simmers as I write this, its rich waft driving me crazy and making me salivate. The secret to my moist tender turkey is in my brine!!!
As I cooked today I thought of Christmas , its meaning and how Jesus died on the cross for us. Jesus really was the epitomy of what humanity is capable of when we focus on love and ignore our self will, thinking more of what our God would have us do that what we would do for ourselves. To this day , when I think of my God, it is the face of Jesus that I see for it is his character that I aspire to be, like the biggest influences in my life- my mother, father and wife, and the greatest figures in history – St. Teresa, Gandhi and Martin Luther King. . As a human I’m flawed, but when I act in my God’s likeness I am perfect. I must learn this over and over again, but today I am aware. I have spent many years absorbed in self will , conceit and deception, so today it feels so nice to possess some inner peace an natural sincere happiness and joy. But this only exists as long as I continue to give it away, and remember that every human being has a story.

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Awakening

Well, still a lot of discussion going on about the Occcup Movement, and I’m feeling more strongly than ever about it. If anything, in my world, its promoting discussion. I’ve spoken to people who don’t understand it, and I can see why. It has no leader/ spokesperson, it doesn’t have an office, a headquarters, or a clear mission statement.
Well, lets face it , we’ve all been conditioned to look for those things to identify with , and they’re not always working . Does your bank really live up to its mission statement?
How about your government, is it living up to its promise? Is having a leader in your country satifsying you? Does pointing the finger at Stephen Harper getting us anywhere when things go awry?
Occupy is growing , whether you believe it or not, just follow it for a while. For those who dont know what its about, heres my take.
Its about acknowledging the inequity amongst us. Its about asking why there are poor people in countries when others have more than they need or can ever use. Its about demanding answers we all deserve to hear .Its about making people accountable .
It truly isn’t an Awakening for me. It feels more like what I’ve always felt and thought is now being acknowledged on a larger scale. Its about all the injustices I’ve seen get swept under the rug for years and have made me very depressed. Its about the reason why I chose not to have children, because I felt there would be nothing worthwhile left for them.
And if youre tired of me putting all this stuff on FaceBook , trust me that its not going away. What depresses and discourages me most is that the people I’m close to and respect wont’ stand up and support this Movement. And I have to believe its because they are truly scared to see the truth of whats happening around us. I find it hard to practice acceptance here. But I have to fight the depression and believe that my voice can make a difference. I can’t tell you how often I’ve thought of packing it all in and becoming an agent for change in a more effective way. For today, I will do what I can.

Live and let live

So nice to be home after a week away. One of the things I constantly struggle with is the “Live and Let Live” principle.
I feel strongly about certain things in life, but I need to keep myself in check because as a human I am flawed , and I must keep my mind open enough to be willing to accept others views and opinions and be empathetic when I feel apathy because my opinions are so strong. Sometimes saying absolutely nothing is the very best thing to do. Next time you’re in a group and people are discussing something passionately, gossiping, or whatever, try saying absolutely nothing and see what kind of response you get. I think you may be surprised.
I’m mainly talking about the people who criticize the Occupy Movement. I just can’t seem to get my head around why people wouldn’t support such a positive thing, bringing light to the injustices that affect us all and need to change for the future of mankind. At the end of the day, if I’m going to be an example for the movement, I need to represent it positively and continue to “occupy”,and keep putting it out there. I strongly believe in the ideology behind it. Justice and equality. I sympathize with young people trying to make their way in this world today.

I’ve talk a lot recently about marketing and how its ruined Christmas, about my dislike for Walmart and huge box stores because of what it’s done to local and global economies. Well yesterday I was in New Hampshire on business and had a few hours to kill before driving to Boston for a flight. I find myself in a Dicks Sporting Goods store, a large US chain. I end up buying $99. worth of running gear, justifying the purchase because it was tax free and cheap. Not quite walking the walk here , am I? So I’m not pleased with myself but at least I’m aware and I will try not to do it again, but its very easy to be mislead and I can be a victim of subliminal marketing if I’m not on my guard. The annoying thing is that I feel I have to be on guard. In time I hope it comes naturally.

Night owl ? Me?

Here I am sitting a Quality Assurance lab in New Hampshire at 12:35 am, that would be 1:35 am at home. Very strange for me , as I’m usually in bed by 10 pm every night, even Saturdays. Who would have ever believed that, looking at this guy 3 or 4 years ago when I’d sit up smoking and drinking late into the night. I have to say I like my life and myself a lot better today.I need to live a clean life to be happy , free of addictions, guilt and remorse.
I’ve had a couple of very long days this week, but its really good to shake things up ,and not get used to a routine too much. The neat thing about travelling is seeing how others live, the good and “less good parts” about living in big cities, the 5 lane traffic, and tolls, etc. But I have to tell you, I’ll take my simple country life in Lunenburg any day!!! But its a real privilege to be able to get to larger centers and enjoy the benefits they offer like great restaurants, sports, etc. I trashed the Leafs openly all night during a game and didn’t even get harrassed about it from the every loyal Leafs Fans! As gullible as they are, they are good sports!
A Simple thing like visiting a beautiful Bernese Mountain Dog , being walked by his owner in front of the CN Tower last night bring a lot of joy to me. Under the guise of substances, I would not notice , nor care about such a simple little things. both dog and owner were very nice to us, (dogs always are!!), but it was clear to see they were true companions and in this world we all need someone.

We had a very tasty high quality meal last night in a very well known popular restaurant in Toronto. The food was delicious, served Tapas style, thus allowing us to try a dozen different dishes ranging from Artisanal Mozzarella di buffalo to Crispy Calamari in sweet peanut sauce , to Crispy Duck tortillas. But what really surprises me today is how the calm ambience of dining has really been lost in these metropolitan hot spots. Loud talking and shouting , obnoxious electronic house music and snotty servers don’t really do it for me . Part of a good dining experience for me is to enjoy the “chi” or “energy” that exists in a room, and flows through the people and the food. I’ve not had that in a restaurant experience for some time. Maybe we’ll find it this weekend at the Press Gang in Halifax. The website presents as it being more of a traditonal dining room with comfort and style. I know the company will be good for sure. Well, I have to pull the plug, this night owl’s had it for the night, Now to try and find my way back to my hotel in this dark sea side city.

On the road. a

Travelling sure makes me think sometimes. You see so many people in airports , and everyone of them has a story. I have to keep reminding myself not to judge a book by its cover . It seems that in today’s society we seem to make quick judgments based on what we immediately see. I continually challenge myself to not make any judgments whatsoever and allow energy to flow as it should. I find that when I keep an open heart, I’m more likely to attract positive energy from people. My wise wife Barbara taught me that.  And that is the motto of the 93 year old good friend of ours , Hermann who has travelled the world in his VW van and now lives with his young bride in a home he built in Thailand. Everywhere he went, strangers, welcomed him with open arms, God bless you Hermann!!!! What a vibrant spirit you are!! More on Hermann in a later blog.

It reminds me of the phrase that “humans were meant to co-operate , not compete”.  I tend to self talk more these days, reminding myself to treat my fellow humans naturally, not in the way that media tells me to.  When I stop behaving like I have something  to prove to you, I feel better about myself, more at peace, whether you like me or not. Now I’m not sure about where this stuff is coming from, I think its a combination of age, natural endorphins from running, yoga and weaning myself off of anti depressants and actually starting to feel real emotions.  Whatever it is, I dont need to put a label on it, I just need to feel it and work with it. I’ve spent enough time in negative spaces that I think its time to finally let myself enjoy the positive and try to spread it around!!!  Theres nothing wrong with being an open book, as long as your pages are clean. I leave that up to your own interpretation.

Off to sleep, a big day tomorrow!!!!

Hello world!

Hello, and welcome to my world. I’ve been thinking for quite some time about writing a blog and last night during a wonderful run, I finally got motivated to do it! I thought about the bloggers that I know , and what I have learned from them , simply because they offered to open themselves up to me through their blog.  All of my inspiration has come from people and animals. (yes, I’m a huge animal lover , with 4 dogs, I’d have more if I could manage it, My lovely wife Barbara, would agree to that!!!!!

My motivation is in sharing my life with people, with the hope that someone can learn from my mistakes, or get inspired by what I might have to share. This blog for me is meant to be a form of therapy and a learning tool in the lessons of life. I also want to share my gratitude for the abundance that I have been blessed with . A fantastic wife who I adore and who teaches me things everyday, 4 little furry friends who love me anytime anywhere, a job with an ethical company who values its employees, a nice peaceful home with nice neighbours, food in my stomach and clothes on my back and my health. This is all I really need. Thank you Lord.

I will try to blog daily , and will make it a point to share the good and the bad, in hopes that I can inspire , enlighten or just share in humanity!